Tuesday, December 9, 2008
IM DONE!!!! yay FOR ANOTHER SEMESTER FINISHED! ONLY ONE MORE AND THEN IM DONE.... WELL FOR NOW! ITS SOO EXCITING WELL FOR ME... HAHA I JUST SOLD ALL MY BOOKS AND GOT SOME GOOOD MONEY!! I AM VERY EXCITED NOW FOR CHRISTMAS!! THINGS ARE STARTING TO COME TOGETHER AND IM LIKING IT GREATLY!! GOD IS AWESOME!! I AM VERY THANKFUL FOR THE FRIENDS AND FAMILY HE HAS GIVEN ME! THIS CHRISTMAS SEASON MAKES ME HAPPPPY!! AND HENCE THE ALL CAPSSSS!
Monday, November 3, 2008
moments
So today on my lunch break I was chatting with my new favorite starbucks barista Becca. And she was telling me how crazy her life was shes working 2 jobs has a husband and 3 kids.. and I thought I was busy! haha well she was talking about how she likes to enjoy the moments she has just to relax.. She was telling me she likes to get up early on saturday mornings and watch anne of green gables with her daughter and just enjoy that moment... I needed that advice today.. Life has been so dramatic and so busy that I needed someone to say STOP and just enjoy the moments you have... I really took that to heart today and after work I came home and put in the 4th season of full house and just relaxed and enjoyed the moment...
I'll leave you with words of wisdom from Michelle Tanner.. You got it dude! :)
I'll leave you with words of wisdom from Michelle Tanner.. You got it dude! :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008
lameness
So my life consists of working and school and working and homework and work and cleaning and homework and eating more working..... oh and add church in there too! and an ounceful of sleeping....
whats missing??? o yeah them friends and a social life where I can have fun and laugh and go on adventures and pick pumpkins and watch sappy movies. and look at planets and stars. and go to the flea market and buy rob for 5$! and read and study and draw and all the other really fun and exciting things I like to do.... I miss all of these quite terribly..
Life is no fun right now! I love my job and I love my classes and Im enjoying both so much right now and some other things are lacking and suffering in my life.. When will this maddness end you say? Hmmm this one would like to know...
oh prolly around july 26th when i finish school forever!!!! i should start a countdown!! yeah i'll pencil that in after working!
oo man i need to start telling you all about school sooo much awesome things going on there i love learning!!
whats missing??? o yeah them friends and a social life where I can have fun and laugh and go on adventures and pick pumpkins and watch sappy movies. and look at planets and stars. and go to the flea market and buy rob for 5$! and read and study and draw and all the other really fun and exciting things I like to do.... I miss all of these quite terribly..
Life is no fun right now! I love my job and I love my classes and Im enjoying both so much right now and some other things are lacking and suffering in my life.. When will this maddness end you say? Hmmm this one would like to know...
oh prolly around july 26th when i finish school forever!!!! i should start a countdown!! yeah i'll pencil that in after working!
oo man i need to start telling you all about school sooo much awesome things going on there i love learning!!
Friday, September 26, 2008
please be a prayin...
Update!
So I started working at Target... Yeah I thought I was totally going to hate it but actually it aint to shabby. The people I work with are awesome and very friendly. Get this I met a girl her name is Kayla who was born on the same day same hospital except im a few hours older than her! I met my twin! haha. Also I have only been there about two weeks now and I got a promotion! Im going to be working in the office now! How sweet is that?! God really provides and works things out!
On sad note. things have been quite crazy and emotional this weekend. Yesterday I was walking in walmart having a grand time with my grandma and my cousin bethany. When all of the sudden I hear my phone start singing.. "so you had a bad day you take a one down and you turn it around..." and that ringer is my daddys.. I knew something was up by the sound of his voice and the fact he was calling me in the middle of the afternoon... Well there was..
He told me that my Aunt Sandy was in the hospital again she had another stroke and honey she wasnt going to make it this time... He told me they were just keeping her comfortable until they were ready to take her off life support. I was overcome by emotion and tears fell from my eyes... My cousin who was standing next to knew something was up by the look on my face and the tears flowing from my eyes... and quickly retrevied grandma who was looking for some fall decorations..
I continued to ask if I should go to the hospital and what he wanted me to do. He told me I could go if I could handle it.. I told my daddy I loved him and hung up with him.. totally devistated by this recent news...
After much debate on whether I should go and be with my family at the hospital or not I decided I could provide some kind of support...
Entering the hospital was such an erie feeling... I knew I had to be strong and be able to provide some kind of emotional support. My brother was already there and I quickly found him and the rest of my uncles and my two aunts in the family waiting area...
Everyone was just sitting there emotionless.... I felt very uncomfortable and I greeted everyone with a half smile and hug of comfort... We continued to wait around and have very brief and quiet small talk. (I only ever really see my dads side of the family anymore in emergency situations or holidays...)
The thoughts running through my head we all about these kids loosing there mother.... She has three children Athena (29), Karlina (25) married to Larry and have a daughter Alex(2), and Nathan (24)....
They lost their father when they were in middle school.. and now they are loosing their mother.....I cant even imagine the feeling of this grief and loss.. Tears rolling down their faces.. Strong kids not wanting to let their mother go....
It was getting late and it was just a matter of waiting til the kids were ready to let go... and let God welcome her into heaven...
My brother and I decided we should go home and let the kids have there time... All night I just couldnt let this off my mind.. I am soo saddened by this.. I kept on thinking about my aunts life and all the pain and suffering she has had to go through in her lifetime... She was a great woman and a contagious christian.. She had a passion for children and making sure there was enough love to go around. She always had a plan on what to do next. She loved my father and was very close with him. The fact that he was in florida and couldnt be here made me very sad....
The memories of camping at the Lot and swimming in her pool. remain vivid in my mind...
All day today I had my phone close waiting for that call from daddy that she had gone....
At around 1pm my dad called and said they were going to do a final test on her brain and after that they were going to see if there were any organs they could harvest to save others and then that was going to be all that they could do for her....
At 3:15pm September 26. she had gone home to be with the Lord.....
*** Please be in prayer for my family and my cousins during this difficult time... My parents are driving up to Ohio tonight and funeral arrangements are going to be made tommorow.
:(
So I started working at Target... Yeah I thought I was totally going to hate it but actually it aint to shabby. The people I work with are awesome and very friendly. Get this I met a girl her name is Kayla who was born on the same day same hospital except im a few hours older than her! I met my twin! haha. Also I have only been there about two weeks now and I got a promotion! Im going to be working in the office now! How sweet is that?! God really provides and works things out!
On sad note. things have been quite crazy and emotional this weekend. Yesterday I was walking in walmart having a grand time with my grandma and my cousin bethany. When all of the sudden I hear my phone start singing.. "so you had a bad day you take a one down and you turn it around..." and that ringer is my daddys.. I knew something was up by the sound of his voice and the fact he was calling me in the middle of the afternoon... Well there was..
He told me that my Aunt Sandy was in the hospital again she had another stroke and honey she wasnt going to make it this time... He told me they were just keeping her comfortable until they were ready to take her off life support. I was overcome by emotion and tears fell from my eyes... My cousin who was standing next to knew something was up by the look on my face and the tears flowing from my eyes... and quickly retrevied grandma who was looking for some fall decorations..
I continued to ask if I should go to the hospital and what he wanted me to do. He told me I could go if I could handle it.. I told my daddy I loved him and hung up with him.. totally devistated by this recent news...
After much debate on whether I should go and be with my family at the hospital or not I decided I could provide some kind of support...
Entering the hospital was such an erie feeling... I knew I had to be strong and be able to provide some kind of emotional support. My brother was already there and I quickly found him and the rest of my uncles and my two aunts in the family waiting area...
Everyone was just sitting there emotionless.... I felt very uncomfortable and I greeted everyone with a half smile and hug of comfort... We continued to wait around and have very brief and quiet small talk. (I only ever really see my dads side of the family anymore in emergency situations or holidays...)
The thoughts running through my head we all about these kids loosing there mother.... She has three children Athena (29), Karlina (25) married to Larry and have a daughter Alex(2), and Nathan (24)....
They lost their father when they were in middle school.. and now they are loosing their mother.....I cant even imagine the feeling of this grief and loss.. Tears rolling down their faces.. Strong kids not wanting to let their mother go....
It was getting late and it was just a matter of waiting til the kids were ready to let go... and let God welcome her into heaven...
My brother and I decided we should go home and let the kids have there time... All night I just couldnt let this off my mind.. I am soo saddened by this.. I kept on thinking about my aunts life and all the pain and suffering she has had to go through in her lifetime... She was a great woman and a contagious christian.. She had a passion for children and making sure there was enough love to go around. She always had a plan on what to do next. She loved my father and was very close with him. The fact that he was in florida and couldnt be here made me very sad....
The memories of camping at the Lot and swimming in her pool. remain vivid in my mind...
All day today I had my phone close waiting for that call from daddy that she had gone....
At around 1pm my dad called and said they were going to do a final test on her brain and after that they were going to see if there were any organs they could harvest to save others and then that was going to be all that they could do for her....
At 3:15pm September 26. she had gone home to be with the Lord.....
*** Please be in prayer for my family and my cousins during this difficult time... My parents are driving up to Ohio tonight and funeral arrangements are going to be made tommorow.
:(
Friday, September 19, 2008
my heart is tired....
My heart is tired….
Tired of being let down and
disappointed by
friends and family and
other people of this world.
Im tired of pouring emotions into a bottle
only for someone to come and
shake them out and they explode!
Im tired of moving…
Im tired of worrying about people…
Im tired of forgiving…
Im tired of trying to hide the pain of loosing people close…
My tears are being wasted…
My time is being used
My smiles are being turned upside down.
My mind is tired of the games.
My heart is getting torn….
I am broken and on my knees…
My Jesus has paid the price and forgiven me…
I need to let go and let God.
I need grace
And guidance
I need patience
I need His love.
I need Him.
I have Him…
Tired of being let down and
disappointed by
friends and family and
other people of this world.
Im tired of pouring emotions into a bottle
only for someone to come and
shake them out and they explode!
Im tired of moving…
Im tired of worrying about people…
Im tired of forgiving…
Im tired of trying to hide the pain of loosing people close…
My tears are being wasted…
My time is being used
My smiles are being turned upside down.
My mind is tired of the games.
My heart is getting torn….
I am broken and on my knees…
My Jesus has paid the price and forgiven me…
I need to let go and let God.
I need grace
And guidance
I need patience
I need His love.
I need Him.
I have Him…
Thursday, September 11, 2008
thursdayssss
I love thursday's! they make me smile! Its signifies the end of week and its soo close to the weekend you can smell it! I also love Thursday's because I only have a half day of classes and I get home early! Today I am at panera I have like a 3 hour break where I can relax and sip my coffee and enjoy some people watching! my favorite!
Today at panera its quite busy and there are so many people I have seen several people I know walk in and out the doors. I saw one of my new friends Estie (sp?) and she was here filling out an application and she is really cool I'm glad I got to see her! After I ordered my food I saw one of my friends I grew up at church she was ordering I had a brief conversation with her! Its so awesome to see people you know out an about.
I love how God brings people in our lives that we need... I am always encouraged when I ask a fellow believer how their week is and what they have going on and its always something interesting and it just encourages me that I need to be doing more! I was talking online with my friend lindsay and she was telling me of how she wants to find a way to connect and get involved with school and it reminded me of my goal I had set for this year and how I haven't exactly been working on it.....
One of my goals this year for school is to connect at school with people. I always just go to school hardly ever talk to anyone unless I'm asking a question to the teacher or the person sitting next to me.. So i challenged myself to meet people and develop and friendship and share Jesus with them. There are so many lost people in all my classes and I always sit there and class and I feel so burdened for people and I pray for them but I never make an effort to talk and reach out to them... So please pray for me that I can be bold and share my faith!
Oh how I love thursdays.....
Today at panera its quite busy and there are so many people I have seen several people I know walk in and out the doors. I saw one of my new friends Estie (sp?) and she was here filling out an application and she is really cool I'm glad I got to see her! After I ordered my food I saw one of my friends I grew up at church she was ordering I had a brief conversation with her! Its so awesome to see people you know out an about.
I love how God brings people in our lives that we need... I am always encouraged when I ask a fellow believer how their week is and what they have going on and its always something interesting and it just encourages me that I need to be doing more! I was talking online with my friend lindsay and she was telling me of how she wants to find a way to connect and get involved with school and it reminded me of my goal I had set for this year and how I haven't exactly been working on it.....
One of my goals this year for school is to connect at school with people. I always just go to school hardly ever talk to anyone unless I'm asking a question to the teacher or the person sitting next to me.. So i challenged myself to meet people and develop and friendship and share Jesus with them. There are so many lost people in all my classes and I always sit there and class and I feel so burdened for people and I pray for them but I never make an effort to talk and reach out to them... So please pray for me that I can be bold and share my faith!
Oh how I love thursdays.....
Monday, September 8, 2008
The start of something new...
The question is.. do I really need to start writing blog?? I have to keep a journal and write a documentation for three of my classes and I already have a journal I keep and I do surveys on myspace quite frequently... lol serious people how much more do you want to know about me???!!??
After having lunch yesterday with the gal pals, Tiffany insisted I needed to start writing a blog so she could read it! But the more I thought about writing a blog I liked the idea because a lot of times I dont share things that are on my mind. I like to sit back and observe people and if I want to say something I will share but if I dont have anything to add I will just listen.. But I think sometimes people get annoyed with me because I dont talk or I dont really tell them what I think I just "nod my head and smile and agree"... So a blog will be good to write and give whoever is reading this a little inserpt into my mind and my crazy life.!
p.s.
if you are reading this please comment or something so I have an idea on who is actually reading this...
After having lunch yesterday with the gal pals, Tiffany insisted I needed to start writing a blog so she could read it! But the more I thought about writing a blog I liked the idea because a lot of times I dont share things that are on my mind. I like to sit back and observe people and if I want to say something I will share but if I dont have anything to add I will just listen.. But I think sometimes people get annoyed with me because I dont talk or I dont really tell them what I think I just "nod my head and smile and agree"... So a blog will be good to write and give whoever is reading this a little inserpt into my mind and my crazy life.!
p.s.
if you are reading this please comment or something so I have an idea on who is actually reading this...
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