please be a prayin...

Update!
So I started working at Target... Yeah I thought I was totally going to hate it but actually it aint to shabby. The people I work with are awesome and very friendly. Get this I met a girl her name is Kayla who was born on the same day same hospital except im a few hours older than her! I met my twin! haha. Also I have only been there about two weeks now and I got a promotion! Im going to be working in the office now! How sweet is that?! God really provides and works things out!

On sad note. things have been quite crazy and emotional this weekend. Yesterday I was walking in walmart having a grand time with my grandma and my cousin bethany. When all of the sudden I hear my phone start singing.. "so you had a bad day you take a one down and you turn it around..." and that ringer is my daddys.. I knew something was up by the sound of his voice and the fact he was calling me in the middle of the afternoon... Well there was..
He told me that my Aunt Sandy was in the hospital again she had another stroke and honey she wasnt going to make it this time... He told me they were just keeping her comfortable until they were ready to take her off life support. I was overcome by emotion and tears fell from my eyes... My cousin who was standing next to knew something was up by the look on my face and the tears flowing from my eyes... and quickly retrevied grandma who was looking for some fall decorations..
I continued to ask if I should go to the hospital and what he wanted me to do. He told me I could go if I could handle it.. I told my daddy I loved him and hung up with him.. totally devistated by this recent news...
After much debate on whether I should go and be with my family at the hospital or not I decided I could provide some kind of support...
Entering the hospital was such an erie feeling... I knew I had to be strong and be able to provide some kind of emotional support. My brother was already there and I quickly found him and the rest of my uncles and my two aunts in the family waiting area...
Everyone was just sitting there emotionless.... I felt very uncomfortable and I greeted everyone with a half smile and hug of comfort... We continued to wait around and have very brief and quiet small talk. (I only ever really see my dads side of the family anymore in emergency situations or holidays...)
The thoughts running through my head we all about these kids loosing there mother.... She has three children Athena (29), Karlina (25) married to Larry and have a daughter Alex(2), and Nathan (24)....
They lost their father when they were in middle school.. and now they are loosing their mother.....I cant even imagine the feeling of this grief and loss.. Tears rolling down their faces.. Strong kids not wanting to let their mother go....
It was getting late and it was just a matter of waiting til the kids were ready to let go... and let God welcome her into heaven...
My brother and I decided we should go home and let the kids have there time... All night I just couldnt let this off my mind.. I am soo saddened by this.. I kept on thinking about my aunts life and all the pain and suffering she has had to go through in her lifetime... She was a great woman and a contagious christian.. She had a passion for children and making sure there was enough love to go around. She always had a plan on what to do next. She loved my father and was very close with him. The fact that he was in florida and couldnt be here made me very sad....
The memories of camping at the Lot and swimming in her pool. remain vivid in my mind...
All day today I had my phone close waiting for that call from daddy that she had gone....
At around 1pm my dad called and said they were going to do a final test on her brain and after that they were going to see if there were any organs they could harvest to save others and then that was going to be all that they could do for her....

At 3:15pm September 26. she had gone home to be with the Lord.....

*** Please be in prayer for my family and my cousins during this difficult time... My parents are driving up to Ohio tonight and funeral arrangements are going to be made tommorow.
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